Amandaai

Somebody wants you,

Somebody needs you,

Somebody dreams about you every single night,

Somebody can’t breathe,

Without you it’s lonely,

Somebody hopes that one day you will see…

That somebody’s me.

Since my birthday and Christmas are only 6 days apart, here’s my list for this year :)

-Cuisinart or Kitchenaid food processor

-Martha Stewarts Pies and Tarts Cookbook

-Pre-order of Joy the Baker Cookbook

-Hall & Oates Greatest hits

-Martha Stewart Crafts Knit & Weave Loom Kit

-Aldi’s, Michaels (Yes, my workplace hahaha), Hobby Lobby, or Jo-Ann’s gift cards :)

WTF IS THIS NONSENSE… can’t watch last nights episode of Glee for 8 days online.

Why isn’t there something I can take to kill the part in my brain that’s always telling me, “you’ll never be happy.” ?

I hate thinking negative thoughts that give myself anxiety attacks. Then I have to hold my breath till I can breathe again. I know that sounds insane too. But its like self sabotage. If that makes sense. Then I’m stuck pretending I’m not losing it on the inside.

I wonder where I am. In life I mean. So many people I went to school with and knew for so long are getting married, starting families, and even buying homes. Its not that I envy their lives, it just makes me do a reality check. Its OK to want the typical “American dream”. I am after all a white girl who didn’t stop playing with Barbies until I was 14, and thought I was a Disney princess. I guess it just makes me want more. I want a stable life with a place to call home and people who care about me waiting there. Idk. There’s so much in my head but I don’t know how to express it. I guess this is growing up..

the-listening:

fuckyeahoflegends:

Of Legends will be touring USA & Canada, opening for Bring Me The Horizon!

Check out the dates!

Go get em Luis!

curling my hair isn’t that boring when I hold the iron with one hand and browse tumblr with the other :)

and I’m on a tea kick. coconut paradise today. hot with skim.

t9shane:

amandaindiana:

September 24th in indianapolis! I’m gonna fucking cry! :)

So stoked for my dudes!

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